1st November 2013
It is early morning the Dudhi Kaal. And as all early morning epochs, it is a mysterious time. When though it is all dark. No sign that this calmness will end for sure, from past we know this time will give rise to sun filled day. A day that could be hot or cold or even cloudy. From this juncture or start of the journey of the day one has no idea. One can fathom or imagine but reality will always bring something new.So how does it feel before I the start of another significant journey? And just like the last as an epochical journey I took when I crossed seven seas to come to this new land. I have some imagination of what the new life/journey would be. But they are still imagination. And as I knew from the last one, the imaginations are sometimes very different.
At the job front I am starting the only second permanent one. Just like the last one, which also started with becons of cold that is in the air. This start is happening at the end of fall. Last time I was in Florida and had a month or so for H1 paperwork transfer just like atleast 3 weeks of accepting the offer and then background checks as it happened this time. But in both time, there is the anticipation of new job learning, new skills. Though both times it was some Sterling. The only difference is that last time I did not know what to expect and this time with age on my side (more grey hair) I atleast feel I know what to expect. I still remember in the early days. I still imagined it more like Java J2EE system/hard code programming. But it was product understanding and coming to know how that world works.
The biggest difference indeed is at a mental and home front. Back then it was going back to California with expereinces of last time. The chaos in L.A., which haunted me for so long. The change of going to the crowded apartment from the great places I stayed in Florida. Though when in Florida, I thought my stay would be in Santa Monica. It ended in not so cool place of the town. Wish I had gone with my earlier plan, maybe all the debacle that came upon me wouldn't have happened. On top of it, the person for whom I made the move to the appartment ended up moving in few months. :-( And then for the next 2 year or so I will had to own the apartment and whatever came with it, including constant search, lonliness, and despair. Till I meet her. Which was certainly one of the best times in the apartment.
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This time things are so different. I stay in my own place and with a person who so much understands me and am ready to embark on a much bigger journey together. I compare the now house's backyard to noise that woke me up eveyday. The indifferent neighbors of old to great neigbours now. With little or non dependable support I had then to people like Chitra, Anna, Mom I have now. I seems such a stark difference. And the biggest difference is certainly of then going from a place I loved to a place to a place I had reservations. To now to a place I love and feel improving and enjoying a bit more.
